Ephesians 2:8-9, "For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, that no one should boast."

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Just Me.

I hate when my hubby is out of town.  It feels as if a part of me is missing.  He truly is my best friend and life is just better with him by my side.  Since he has been gone lately due to work being so busy... I have been on my own -- which is no fun! :(

Top 10 Things I Hate about my Hubby being Gone: 

1) There is no one to talk to when you get done with your day.  Ya, we text and talk on the phone when work slows down for him, but there is just something different about talking in person.

2) I have no one to make yummy dinners for.  So, I either end up at my parents for dinner (which is a yummy option always) or I just throw something boring together for me.

3) I do not get my daily hugs and kisses.  This just stinks!

4) I do not have a workout buddy.  We do such a good job of working out together and motivating each other (it has become one of our married hobbies).  It is just harder to do when he is not here, but I push myself anyway... or I at least try!

5) Taking care of yourself when you are sick is no fun (I have had a migraine for 3 days that really just won't go away).  It is always nice to have him home to take care of me when I just feel down right YUCK... but, when he is away the next best option is my mom and dad.  Thank goodness they live right around the corner!

6) I have no cuddle buddy.  I get so cold at night and my feet freeze.  Perk to being married to a man... built in electric blanket.  Seriously, he exerts so much heat and keeps me warm all night.  So when he is gone I am buried under blankets!

7)  I have to check the mail.  This is something that I do not personally like doing (because we get so much junk mail), but he loves it and it is one of his "chores".  Though, when he is gone I have to force (ie. make it a habit) myself to walk to the mailbox to get the mail so it does not overflow!

8) I have no one to go with me on my random errands.  Yes, there are times when I like to just go by myself, but every time he is gone and I have errands to run I wish he was in town so that we could do them together... cheesy I know!

9)  I check to make sure the doors are locked and the alarm is set a million and one times.  Yes, ridiculous I know... but it is just a habit every time he is gone.

10) The thing I probably miss the most... I have no one to pray with at night.  Reagan and I have really tried to make this a habit since we have been married to pray with each other every night when we lay down in bed.  When he prays over me it soothes me and gives me such a love for him I cannot explain.  I  just need this time with him because it helps me end my day.

I know some of these things may be silly to some of y'all.  I love my husband and hate when he was gone.  We were definitely made for each other, and he is most definitely my better half.  All I can say, is that I am so grateful his trips are not months at a time... I think I would go crazy!  Though, after a couple days/week I am definitely done with him being gone and cannot wait for him to be home! Luckily, I have family I can love on while he is away which makes the time feel just a little bit shorter!

I cannot wait to see the hubs in ONE day! I know I will get the best hug ever! Cannot wait to just have him home with me, and finish off the week "normal."

Hugs and Kisses. XOXO. LOVE YOU!

Love my sweet man! Cannot wait for you to be home!!!

Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 - "Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up! Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."

Monday, February 27, 2012

Monday Thoughts

Today was a hard day.  Every day lately seems like a hard day... I need a really good day to erase all these hard days I have been having.  Sorry for the somber mood lately, life is just kinda in a rut.... but I do promise good little things have come out of the bad days and I rejoice in those!  I know God is trying to teach me so much through this season but it is just kinda hard to see all that I am supposed to be learning right now.  I dunno if anyone has ever been in the position I am in, but it just kinda sucks and I wish I could learn a whole lot quicker!  I know God is using this time to mold me and make me into who He needs me to be... hard lessons are never fun!!

Looking over today I had a lot of things I wish that could have been different...

I wish that I did not feel horrible and that my 2 day old migraine would go away, but it isn't.  Lately I have just felt crappy (not like myself) and I so want to feel better- hopefully that day is coming soon!

I wish I would feel rested after I sleep, but all I feel is even more exhausted!  What in the world is the matter with me?!

I wish that my hubby did not have to travel so much.  I know it wears him out to the point of exhaustion and it makes me miss him so much.  Though, I know that he is working so hard to provide for our family... so what more could I ask for?!  That sweet man definitely makes me smile.

I wish that I had more courage today.  To stand up for the things I believe and not let people walk all over me/ intimidate me.  Maybe someday I will find my voice and not be afraid to use it.

I wish my classroom kids knew how much I loved them.  Each one of them are so special to me.  I hope that I give them enough hugs in the day to show them how special they are to me.

I wish I would not worry so much and have so much anxiety. This has been my main focus during Lent -- to give up my worry/fear/anxiety to God.  When I feel overwhelmed with all those emotions I STOP and pray.  I know GOD is big and He can take all these things away from me.

I wish I knew what the next month looked like or even next year.  I feel as if I am standing at a fork in the road and I need answers.

I wish I did not get upset for no reason sometimes.  I know I am not perfect, but sometimes I just cannot explain why I feel the way I do or act the way I do.  I need to become better at understanding where my emotions are coming from.

I wish I had more time in the day to connect with my friends that I miss so much from college.  Life goes by fast and I feel like there is never enough time to just stop and have a long conversation over the phone.  I need to get better at this and make time because those sweet friends mean the world to me.

I wish I was better at photography and had the time to practice and "perfect" it.  That is my goal this summer.

I wish I was not so hard on myself and that I loved me for who God made me to be.  I need to stop looking in the mirror with negative thoughts and groaning at the scale.  As long as I am treating my body as a temple and feeding it well and exercising I need to be pleased with myself, not being so negative!

I wish I knew more scripture by memory.  This is one thing that I am so glad our couples Bible study is helping us do and keeping us accountable for.  I know this will be so useful when I am talking to others about Christ.

All these "wishes" are things that came across my mind at some point or another today.  I know that just getting them down on my blog has helped clear my mind some.  There are always things we can change about ourselves, but through this time of growing pains I hope and pray that I am allowing myself to be changed into the person God desires for me to be because that is all I could ever ask for.

1 Peter 5:7- "Cast all your cares upon Him for He cares for you."

Monday, February 20, 2012

Jesus is my Strength

"When the difficulties in your life feel as if they're closing in on you, break free by spending quality time with Me. You need to remember who I am in all My Power and Glory. Then, humbly bring me your prayers and petitions. Your problems will pale when you view them in the Light of My Presence. You can learn to be joyful in Me, your Savior, even in the midst of adverse circumstances. Rely on Me, your 
Strength." -from the Jesus Calling Devotional

This quote spoke levels to me today.  It was yesterday's devotion but I did not get a chance to read it yesterday so I doubled up today.  WOW.  God knew I needed this.  This morning I woke up (from a day off of work) feeling overwhelmed with life situations I am dealing with right now and the anxiety slowly started to take over.   

My world has been difficult lately... a new difficult I have never really experienced before.  I know everyone has problems (big and small) but lately mine seem to be more than I can handle.  Sometimes I do not even feel like I can hold myself up.  I am finding myself in situations where it is hard to be me... really me, the amazing woman God made me to be because others around me are doing everything they can to smother my joy and make me feel insignificant and tear me down.  The situation is so much deeper than that, but I will leave you only with those emotions I am feeling. I feel like if I choose not to give God the situation it will only be harder for me to deal with, so I am trying as best as I can to give 100% of me during this hard time.  I have found comfort in playing the new Kari Jobe CD over and over, praying without ceasing, having others love on me and praying for me, and resting in knowing that God will take care of this situation no matter what happens.  Do not get me wrong, like this morning the anxiety kicks in and I feel as if the situation may never get better, but then I read encouragement like the passage above and I am reminded that God can do All things. 

So, wherever you are on your life journey (whether it be a peak or a valley) I pray that you are going to God with every concern, joy and fear.  God knows what is best for you and me and He can handle all things! So, like I find myself doing lately, I am on my knees in prayer revealing to God my inner concerns and asking for peace and wisdom to deal with the situation at hand.  I know God is listening and that He is guiding me each day; Rest in knowing that Jesus is all the strength you will ever need! 

Habakkuk 3:19 "The Sovereign LORD is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to go on the heights. For the director of music, on my stringed instruments."

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Let's Rodeo San Antonio!

This week at school did not end on such a great note, but luckily I had a wonderful evening to look forward to!  A couple of weeks ago, my dad casually said while at dinner with my mom, Reagan and me... "A client gave me 4 tickets to the Rodeo to see Lady Antebellum, I wonder who I should take??"  I knew that him taking my mom was a no brainer, but deep down I was hoping he would say us.  My heart was beating so fast. Haha.. I know I am ridiculous!
For those of you who know me... Lady Antebellum is one of my favorite country groups and Reagan likes them just about as much as I do! (Some of my tastes in things have rubbed off on him!) So I am sitting at dinner trying not to be obnoxious and say... "PICK US... WE WANT TO GO!"  When my dad said in a joking manner, "I know y'all love them so much so y'all get to come since you have never seen them in concert!"  My heart definitely skipped a beat and a huge smile was on my face. :)  I love my dad and how he always thinks of us... he is such a sweet man!
So we got to go with my mom and dad to the rodeo last night and it was awesome!   The seats were incredible and the concert was even better!  My parents were laughing because Reagan and I were able to belt out every song (my parents knew most of them too) and we were just having the best time!  It was a great way to end a crappy week and I am so grateful to have parents who love us so much and think about us to go and do fun things with them!! Love you bunches mom and dad!

Well off to start completing my Saturday to-do list!  I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend! Reagan and I are hoping to relax this weekend, but it doesn't look like the odds are in our favor... we are taking some of his clients to the rodeo tonight and then a fun filled day of church and community group tomorrow... so we will try to enjoy any down time we can get!

Here is a pic of me and my sweetie at the Rodeo last night! Love him to pieces! He can make any bad day so much better!! 

Ecclesiastes 7:14 - " When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider; God has made the one as well as the other." 

Love to all! Happy Weekend everyone! 

Saturday, February 4, 2012


Today has been a lazy Saturday!! Definitely what I enjoy the most with my sweet man. I am definitely the planner type that loves getting things done, but I also love to enjoy my sweet time with Reagan and  just let loose a little.  We enjoyed waking up to the rain this morning and cuddling together, cooking breakfast together, cleaning up a bit, and doing loads of laundry (literally).  It is nice to have him here doing nothing at all before he has to leave for his business trip.  The time spent together in moments like this is what we live for -- it is so wonderful.  We have laughed a lot today and I have stolen a lot of kisses from him (I just miss him too darn much when he is gone).  All the things we have gotten to do TOGETHER today has made this Saturday just Perfect!  Well off to help him get all packed up.  I am definitely going to miss my sweet hubby, but I am so glad family lives just down the street to keep me company!

I hope everyone is having a wonderfully Relaxing Saturday!

We LOVE Lazy Saturday's!  No makeup on and comfy clothes ... what could be better?! 

What is your favorite way to spend a lazy day??

Romans 12:10, “Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves.”

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Choose Joy!!

Today was a hard day.  No lying about it.  It sucked.  On my drive home from work, listening to my new Kari Jobe CD I felt like crying. The words she was singing over me were exactly what I needed to hear in the first two songs; I needed to be reminded of the promises of the Lord after a day like today.

Today, I felt out of control -- like there was nothing I could do or say to make my day any better at work.  I felt as if I was having to just stand back and watch it all happen -- the chaos and out of controlness of it all.  I hate that.  I love order and I love children's smiles and I only saw little glimpses of that today.  So today was hard and I walked away feeling down and defeated.

Though, one of my sweet co-workers who is way wiser than I will ever be looked at my today (during the midst of all the craziness) and said, "Smile and CHOOSE JOY."  Those simple words did not get to sink in until after I left work today, but I needed them and God knew I needed to hear them from her.

CHOOSE JOY.  When everything is going crazy around me, I can choose to be happy and rejoice for all God has given me.  CHOOSE JOY.  When those around me are not acting in a loving way, I can choose to love those around me as God does.  CHOOSE JOY.  When others at work are trying to bring others down I can choose to smile and build others up.  CHOOSE JOY.  When the weight of the world is on my shoulders (or so it seems) I will stop my day and pray to God that He will give me patience and a love for all those around me.
IF I can remember those two simple words -- CHOOSE JOY, I know that God will grant me the JOY, PEACE, and LOVE that I need for each day. I am only in-charge of myself and my actions (not everyone else around me), and because of that -- today I CHOOSE JOY.  Because at the end of each day, I want my GOD to smile down on me because I have CHOSEN JOY and showed it ABUNDANTLY.

How will you choose to go about your days??  I pray that you CHOOSE JOY!!

Romans 15:13- "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope."