Ephesians 2:8-9, "For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, that no one should boast."

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

home sweet home... at least for now.

so it has definitely been oh i would have to say about FOREVER since i have posted anything on here! life has been so crazy busy lately. summer is wrapping up... which makes me very sad... and i'm not so ready to be going back to school! oh well... the time has come i guess.. and i got a feeling that this coming year is going to be a great one!

so since i have been gone a lot has happened. i moved into my duplex in fort worth this past week.. i went up on Wednesday and came back today! so since i moved into my duplex that means i finally got to see reagan :) yippee!! i was so excited to see him and just spend time with him. this is only the second time i have seen him this summer... so it was definitely time for a visit! moving into my duplex took a good day and a half.. but with the help of my dad, my mom, reagan and jon.. we got everything cleaned out of my storage, sorted into things to keep and give away/ donate, and we got my room cleaned and decorated. if i must say so myself we were very productive. though, silly me.. i forgot to take pictures of my room... so those to come soon!

also while i was in fort worth, i went and watched reagan's little brother play in his all-star little league baseball games. his team had made it all the way to state undefeated.. but then got beat in the first two games they played.. so home they went.

also in fort worth.. i got to eat at my favorite little lunch place not once but TWICE.. McKinley's... mmmm good! hannah i am so sad you did not get to eat here.. or that i did not get to see you. both times i went there for lunch i thought of you and i and our special dates there every Friday. i love and miss you so so so so much and i really hope i can see you soon... i mean seriously i am becoming deprived!

now back in SA town... i have tons of doctors appointments to go to before i go back to fort worth for good. i also have a wedding cake tasting on Friday morning... i am so Excited!!! it should be so yum.. and i get to start designing my cake so that should be super fun too :)
while back home.. i am also getting my last mom/ daughter day... really kinda makes me sad. i have really enjoyed spending quality time with my mom and dad this summer. its going to be hard going back to school and not getting to see them everyday!

then... next Thursday i am heading back to Dallas... reagan is graduating from DBU on august 7th! so exciting :) i am so proud of him and his work ethic! he has done an amazing job in college and i can't wait to see what God has in store for him at seminary.

my current reading for the past couple of days has been 1 Corinthians.. i started with just Ch. 7 but i decided i am going to read the whole book... there is some good stuff in there... and after paul's sermon on Sunday at TCAL he really got me interested.
i am also reading another jodi picoult book... so good... its called salem falls.. very good book with a lot of twists.. i am very interested to see how it turns out!

oh and also.. praise the LORD i finally got to work out today.. after being in fort worth and so busy i didn't really have time... but i made time as soon as i got back home today i got my butty in the gym. man oh man did it feel good to sweat! i need to get refocused again.. not working out for 5 days straight was killer. i need to recollect and begin to tell myself again... wedding, wedding dress, honeymoon... you want to be in the best shape of your life. so there again is my motivation... its not really that i'm unmotivated... its just i need to get back into the swing of things and have a routine again... i can do this.. i know i can... just gotta stay focused!

well sorry this was the most random blog ever. just filling everyone in on why i haven't written in ages! off to read my book and then bedtime for me, and one busy day tomorrow!

"How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives."

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Smile through the Craziness of Life :)

so today was one of those days where i needed to get things done.. but i was definitely lacking the motivation completely.
i really need to start packing up my stuff in my parents house so that i can move into my duplex in fort worth and be back with my best friends!!!
i am ready for the move but the energy it is going to take to do... exhausts me already.. especially since i have to clean out my storage in fort worth!!!
though... moving my stuff in will get me that much closer to my best friends and reagan.. so i guess i will just have to push through and smile instead of being grumpy!

these past couple of weeks reagan and i have been busy trying to find us somewhere to live once we get married. everyone keeps telling us.. "WOW... y'all are really on top of things..." not exactly.. reagans lease runs out at the end of this month. he graduates from DBU august 7th... and will then start seminary in the fall in fort worth. so our plan was to find somewhere to live that he and some guys can live in until we get married and then it will be ours... wow never thought that idea would be so difficult to fulfill. we cannot find somewhere to live that satisfies both our needs. so please pray for us that we find somewhere to live and do not get so discouraged that we give up completely and stop looking and trying.... LORD GIVE US PERSEVERENCE and FAITH!!

tonight i had a really good workout. i went walking with my dad and my littlest brother around our neighborhood (a mile and a half) and at the end i was able to run up this HUGE hill by our house up and down it 4 times.. amazing because that thing is freakin HUGE and i am usually exhausted by the end but today i could do it. i dunno if it is because i had so much stored up energy. or if i was letting my frustration out on running. either way it made for a really good workout! hah :)

i really should be calling it a night but i have so much on my mind that i'm tired but i can't sleep/ don't want to sleep... that is probably not a good thing. i really just need to let my mind relax and turn out the lights and go to God in prayer... HE comforts me through everything no matter what.
i am hoping tomorrow will be a better day and that things will start looking up. everything takes time in life.. and i think i am in just one of those moments in my life where i need to be continually faithful. in prayer. patient. and God will work things the way He intends for them to be in HIS time not mine.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

Monday, July 13, 2009

man oh man what a boring yet long monday!

so today i had alot that i needed to get done. waking up this morning i was ready to tackle the day... thank goodness :)

today's today list:
get my transcript transfered from UNT to TCU > completed
call about my shot record and get it sent to TCU > completed
mail my grades and letters to my scholarship people > completed
go to the grocery store > completed
cleaned out the fridge > completed
wash clothes and fold them > completed
fill out passport paperwork > completed
try to catch up to hannah in the book vanishing acts > completed... i'm not on the exact same page as her but i have gotten alot read for only having the book since saturday :)

so thank goodness.. i got all the things done that i needed to get done today! yahoo :)

after i got all that done and helped my mom with dinner i went out to the pool and swam laps... i did there and back 100 times in our pool and then did stomach exercises afterwards... so i feel like my 1 hr and 30 min workout was good for today. i just love swimming laps.. there is something about being in the water... it brings back my old swim team days. i kinda just lose myself in the water and it makes exercising alot more enjoyable! :)

tonight after dinner i looked at recipes in the weight watchers five ingredient 15 min recipe magazine.. they have some absolutely great recipes in there that sound so tasty!
then my mom and i looked at cake designers, flowers, and hair/ makeup people. we are trying to get as much done with the wedding as possible while i am here. we are loving wedding planning together... it has been alot of fun and i am so blessed with the parents i have who are willing to make this day as special for reagan and i as they can!

i think tonight i will head to bed early since i was so productive today and continue reading my book (vanishing acts) it really is a good book... love me some jodi picoult!

i really want to go to dallas soon... i am already missing reagan.. he really wasn't here long enough.. seriously 2 days is NOT good enough >> since i haven't seen him all summer! i really look forward to moving my stuff up to my duplex on the 23rd of this month. then i will get to see him and will be that much closer to seeing my best friends again!!!!

i really really really wish that hannah and beautiful baby ava would come and see me! we have a house open and waiting for them... and a pool that hannah and ava would love to lounge in! my mom is dying to meet ava and i'm just really really really ready to see my best friend and my beautiful little ava :) maybe if hannah gets really bored enough she will make a quick moment decision, jump in her car with ava and come here to see me! here is to wishful thinking and hoping :D love yall!!

"We have only this moment, sparkling like a star in our hand... and melting like a snowflake. Let us use it before it is too late."

Friday, July 10, 2009

Summer Lovin' :D

so i'm kinda behind on my blog... i apologize for that! haha i have been busy wedding planning and catching up on my vitamin d!!

so yesterday night i went on my first date of the summer!! reagan came into town and it was so much fun! gosh how i have missed him. it was so nice to just spend time with him and relish the moments until he has to go back on saturday. we went to olive garden and shared this wonderful new chicken pasta dish they have right now... and the bread sticks and salad were yummy as always! then we went to sneak a peak of jons softball game.. they were losing pretty bad so we decided we would head over to our movie! we saw the proposal... for those of you who haven't seen this movie/ it is a MUST!!! so funny and such a cute film.. we were laughing so hard!! :) then after our movie we came back to my house and hung out with my family and just enjoyed the time we were together! i am so so blessed to have him and am going to be really sad when he leaves saturday! :( going on my first date of the summer with him yesterday really showed me how much i have missed him and spending time with him.

today i am headed to the gym to get my workout in so i can keep up my schedule so that when i go back to school and am in the hospital for clinicals i will still have the motivation to get my work out in... i just keep telling myself... WEDDING DRESS. HONEYMOON>> you want to look AMAZING!! :)
at the gym today i will have reagan and my dad working out with me.. so that should be interesting and a very good workout! then i think we plan on grabbing some lunch and laying out by the pool... sounds like a very relaxing day.
tonight... i think reagan and i are going to make dinner together since we haven't gotten to do that all summer... and we LOVE cooking together! what to cook is the question>> any ideas?!

i am so blessed for the amazing memories i am getting to make this weekend and for my amazing friends and the love of my family.
i am getting sad that summer is coming to an end.. i am not ready to go back to school.. i am enjoying not having a strict routine. though, once school starts the closer we will be to the WEDDING!!

oh and hannah... i promise i am going to find that freaking book! if i have to travel across san antonio to get it i will :) i look forward to having a little mini book club with you... it will be fun! i love and miss you... and doing this together will make me feel that much closer to my best friend :) love you and i hope that you, me and sweet little ava will be making our way to beautiful ruidosa very soon :)

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."

Sunday, July 5, 2009

LaZy SunDaY...

church this morning was so wonderful. it was so nice to honor our country as a body of Christ and be grateful for all the men and women who fight to keep our country safe! one of the last songs we sang in church today was God of this city by Chris Tomlin and let me tell you that is one moving song!! being in the middle of my two brothers and listening them sing at the top of their lungs sent chills down my spine. no matter how awful the world may be or the choices that are being made... GOD is always in control and there are GREATER things to come! after church, it was just one of those days, where i would have liked to be doing something productive but i felt productive sitting out by the pool soaking in the vitamin D! i really did not have a lot to do on my "to do list" it was just i had more motivation to listen to the wind blow and the birds chirp then to get up and run my errands! i also thoroughly enjoyed the 2 HOUR conversation i had with my best friend... listening to her talk and tell stories and just laugh made me miss her so much... but made me so incredibly grateful that i have a best friend/sister like her!

so i am thinking that a project i am going to take on this coming week is painting bedroom furniture! i have never done this before... so it should be interesting! my great grandmother has this great white antique furniture that i want to paint black so that i can use it in my apartment and then reagan and i can use it when we get married. hannah has really inspired me to be crafty... it's working, just taking a lot of motivation on my part because i want it to be perfect... go figure that! also... i have really been in the mood lately for scrap booking. i know a girl who scrap booked the year of her engagement. her batchelorette party. her wedding. and their honeymoon! that sounds like so much... but also a lot of fun. :) i think it will be one of those things that will keep me busy but in the end i will be grateful i did it because i will always have the memories. so we shall see if i ever actually get around to doing this in the future! :D

a huge part of me is really ready to be back in dallas/ft. worth. i really miss all my friends.. and especially reagan! i am loving summer and wedding planning... but there is just something about dallas and being surrounded by the people who love you the most. if i could have the best of both worlds and be with my best friend, fiance, and my family in dallas that would be amazing! haha but in the real world i dont foresee that happening anytime soon! so i will continue to love the moments and memories i am making with my family this summer.. and continue to get as much wedding planning as i can get done!

things to look forward to: possibly getting to see reagan next weekend! he might be coming down.. and that would be AMAZING!! i am also trying to talk hannah into coming down to san antonio with ava so i can have some one on one time with them and spoil her like crazy... isn't that what "aunts" are for?! also... there might be a ruidosa trip in my near future.. and that could be fun! because the memories made there are always the best and lots of laughs!
so we shall see!! i am so blessed for the life i have... and the love that is poured into me from my friends and family :)

"True religion is real living; living with all one's soul, with all one's goodness and righteousness."

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Good Morning Beautiful Day :)

waking up to the sun coming in this morning was a good thing! i laid in bed and for the first time this morning my mouth was not throbbing! then i looked at my phone and my amazing friends had already called and text me checking to see how i was doing... oh how extremely blessed i am!
so i got up this morning with a positive attitude that today is going to be a more productive day.. i am seriously getting so bored and need something to do to occupy my time!
since my "wisdom" was lost, i have been thinking of hobbies i would love to do.... i am really finding an interest in photography, still loving scrap booking/picture frame scrap booking, i kinda want to write a book (i don't know what it would be about but i would really like to :D), i want to find a true love for cooking and creating my own dishes, i want to try training for a half marathon and or learning how to rock climb (don't know if this one will ever happen!). i am really enjoying my love and appreciation for working out... it has finally become fun because i guess i am finally seeing results! :) so for the next year (until my wedding) i am really trying hard to make it to the gym everyday and get toned for the wedding! my goal has been met thus far.. or at least until my "wisdom" came out.. so i am ready to get back to the gym to say the least! i really love climbing the stairs.. its a great cardio starter and you sweat like a pig and feel good after it... gosh i am weird!
also, a lot lately i have been thinking about how i can become a better wife. hannah has been giving me tips on things that will help... so grateful for her! i really look forward to starting a family... because as crazy as it seems when reagan and i get married we will be our own little family! :) i really want to find hobbies that we both like... we really like working out together, we LOVE cooking in the kitchen (he is a very good cook :D), we love doing stuff with the youth kids, reading and watching movies are always favorites too! any other good ideas for couple hobbies?? i really think once we get married and find a place i want to start a garden... hannah's garden sounds so cute... and i would love to grow some veggies! that seems very home- like and fun!
i also really look forward to decorating OUR home... that sounds so wonderful! i think it will be so fun getting to paint rooms and buy decorations and put our touch of taste into a house! honestly i think i'm just ready to spend lazy nights with him and wake up with the realization that we are husband and wife! we have been together for so long... it just really hasn't hit me yet that we are actually getting married and our dreams are finally coming true! so grateful that i have such an amazing man like him in my life that takes such good care of me, cares about my well being, has my best interest in mind, and truly loves me unconditionally. to say the least... i am a very lucky girl :)
well sorry my thoughts are kinda all over the place today.. i just woke up with a lot of joy and the realization that i am truly blessed and have so much to be thankful for!
God is good all the time, all the time God is good.

When you are grateful fear disappears and abundance appears

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Laying low and getting kinda BoReD!

So getting my wisdom removed wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I did not swell hardly at all... weird.. I thought I would look like a chipmunk! Not getting to eat hasn't been too bad either.. I'm really enjoying slim fast.. I thought it would taste gross but it's really not bad at all!
Also, I am getting tired of sleeping.. you would think I would be enjoying getting to lay low.. but im getting kinda restless. I am ready to get up, go workout, eat something with substance. :) There are only so many movies and books I can watch and read. I need some ideas of what I can do to occupy my time... any ideas for good books, movies, or great TV shows?

On top of it all, I am really missing my fiance and my best friend. More than anything, I wish they could both be here right now! I have not seen either of them in forever... and it would be so awesome if they could be here helping me occupy my time. Haha if Hannah was here with little Ava she would probably have me cracking up and in tears which probably would not make my mouth feel so great, but would make me so extremely happy! A surprise visit from those two cute girls would be the best and would extremely brighten my day!

More than anything I would love to see my fiance Reagan right now!!! He is so busy being the youth leader at TCAL and loving it but I am definately missing him more than anything! He is doing a great job trying to find us somewhere to live for after we get married and he has alot of patience... I am so grateful for that! A huge part of me really wishes that I could snap my fingers and June 12, 2010 would be here! I am having alot of fun wedding planning in San Antonio with my mom and our wedding planner Tracy, but I am just really ready to be with him and doing life with him! There are only so many decisions for this wedding I can make.... and I am ready for him to be here making some decisions too because that will mean that it is getting closer to the wedding! I can't wait to go do our registry together, cake tasting, or even practicing our first dance! All and all, I am just ready for the day to be closer so that all my dreams can finally come true! I love you with all my heart Reagan :)

Sorry this was such a random post... have alot of stuff on my mind since I have been laying here so long just thinking!

"Love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each, is to succeed."